Teddy Loved A Bad Boy

It is 2 in the morning. I am delirious and a little off due to a lack of sleep. 

Why does the night have this effect on people?

Anyways, I had a great time tonight for the first time in a while. Dance Parties+Hamburgers+Twerking+Apples to Apples, calls for a good time. Im glad I have great friends that are there to be themselves and have genuine, sober fun with me. I really needed it right now in life and I can't thank anyone enough 

Hello

Things have been changing all around me so I havent been posting on here that much. I've been focusing on distracting myself and keeping my life going naturally and not thinking about bad things that I've been struggling with. Dancing, cheerleading, and spending time with the friends that make me feel better have been doing me good and keeping me from becoming too sad. Pretty much I have learned that being distant from someone you care about a lot can teach you a lot about who you are and how your actions can effect your life when you dont look at things from an outside point of view. Also, people will show their true colors when you are going through hard times.
This week has taught me that true friends will be there no matter what, and in the end things will be better during bad situations.

Quicky to Coachella

A random opportunity came up and like all things in life, I managed to work things out! I traded my Coachella weekend 2 tickets for weekend 1 tickets! I'm heading out tonight at 7 with the girl I miss the most and can't wait to reconnect with. I can't even explain how stoked I am!!!

Sunny

Today I woke up to the sun shining in my eyes. I looked outside and there wasn't a cloud in the sky! Obviously, this called for a beach day. Some friends and I headed out to 15th street! We laughed a lot, laid in the sun for a while, then made our way to Pacific Beach to get In-n-Out Burger. A pretty typical California spring break type of day!

I'm starting to be more open minded about who I'm hanging out with. Opinions that were made in the past are starting to be reconsidered. I'm starting to get over the idea that everyone is going to hurt me. Chances are, some people might but why worry about that? I've come to realize that it is better to be yourself and have a good time rather than worry about what could happen. In the past, I was intimidated and scared to be myself and I'm really glad that I'm coming out of my shell. So much has changed this past year and through all the bad times I've learned a lot and became a much better "me" than I used to be. Hardship has shaped me into a happier, more open person and I'm glad to feel like there's a lot of weight that has been taken off of my shoulders.
I got in a fight with my parents last night and in the past I would've acted like it was the end of the world. This time, I decided to focus on the better things that are going for me right now. I've got Coachella coming up, I'm getting a new car, I've been branching out and making memories with new people, and I shouldn't let one fight with my parents make me feel tense and mad.

"There's a rainbow in the sky, all the time. Don't be blind."

Spontaneous Change Of The Day

Last night I had the weirdest dream. My boyfriend was wearing my lingerie and dancing for me in my room then my mom walked in and he hid in my closet and I was cracking up and being really sketchy and she didn't even notice. Then I was in a steam room and when I got out, the paparazzi was asking my for my autograph so I went to dog beach and met Boo (the famous cute dog) and I got super excited. I usually google what dreams mean but nothing showed up for "dream interpretation of your boyfriend dancing for you in your own lingerie" hahah.
I spent a good majority of my day today watching Skins. Even though I've seen a majority of the episodes, I watched most of seasons 3 and 4 today. I absolutely love Katie because she's sassy and a little bitchy. Also, I love her hair color. I was bored this morning and got inspired by her hair and dyed mine a deep burgundy. I wasn't planning on it or even considering it, I was just feeling spontaneous and thought I would change things up a bit. I think it looks sick and I'm loving it!

Spring Break!

My spring break has been awesome so far! There's been an equally balanced amount of down time to myself and hanging out with friends. I've branched out and hung out with some new people and also had fun with those close to me. Last night, a group of people and I saw Evil Dead. I would recommend that if you want to see it; don't. I can usually handle horror movies but this one was extremely graphic and scary. I regret seeing it and wasting 16$ just to not sleep all night. To get my mind off of it, I baked chocolate chip cookies when I got home! Baking's one of my favorite things to do.

 Coachella is still the one thing on my mind at all times. I'm constantly listening to my Day 1, 2, and 3 playlists I made on my phone and imagining how awesome it will be. In my opinion one of the most important aspects of the Coachella experience is the fashion scene. You want to dress super cute but at the same time be comfortable dancing in 100 degree weather. Since the festival is in 12 days I've been beginning to plan my three outfits! Here's what I'm thinking! All I need is something to carry all my stuff in throughout the day.  If anyone knows where I can get myself a cute fanny pack, let me know please!

Fresh Skin & Fast Cars

Feeling fresh never fails to put me in a good mood. I'm a girl that loves pampering myself when it comes to being clean! I've got quite the collection of epsom salts, hair masks, loofas, and body scrubs;  Bath time is easily my favorite time of day! Today I gave myself a really good DIY facial I saw on Pinterest! I mixed together an avocado, half a teaspoon of lemon juice, and one egg white. It hardened about 10-12 minutes after I evened it on my face and neck. When I rinsed it off my face felt smooth, fresh, and looked very clean! I would recommend it to anyone! There were some other ideas along with the one I did on the pin, check it out:)

After my car accident last week, I was looking into getting into a safer and bigger car because I was a little scared to be driving in a small car. After talking to my parents, I decided that since I'm a pretty tiny girl, a small car would be easier for me to drive. So today, my Mom took me to the Audi dealership and I got to test drive some of the newer A5s and TTs! It was awesome! I'm pretty set on getting an Audi now, I just have to find a good deal on a used one.

Hopefully one day soon I'll be able to call one mine!

Hike!

I absolutely love where I live. San Diego is one of the most beautiful places to be and it really doesn't get old. I've hiked Torrey Pines beach trail an uncountable number of times ever since my first time hiking it when I was in Girl Scouts in what, 1st grade? Today I added to that uncountable number and hiked it with one of my favorite people, Katie! She loves hiking just as much as I do and it's good to have someone to hike with. Torrey Pines is a personal favorite of mine, but any hiking trail is great! A pretty view and fresh air makes working out more fun. We talked and laughed the entire time, the ~3 miles didn't even feel like anything (I'll probably feel it in the morning though!).

I want it to be known that I'm not hiking, running, and going to the gym more often to "lose weight". I just want to be more fit and toned for the upcoming swimsuit season and cheer season. I've taken a break from all-star cheer and I plan on going back this year. Being an all-star cheerleader takes a lot of strength and physical stamina so I am simply trying to get back the body endurance I used to have when I was super into all-star cheer. People have been commenting a little more than usual on my weight and it hurts a lot to hear that people wonder if I'm eating. If you really knew me, you would know I can down a 4x4 from In-N-Out burger along with the fries and drinks in less than 7 minutes, you would know my mom goes grocery shopping more than the usual person because my sister and I eat all the food in one day. What I'm trying to say is this girl can eat, loves to eat, and does eat. Being diagnosed with allergies to corn, nuts, and dairy about a year and a half ago made some unhealthy foods and snacks unavailable to me and did take a toll on my weight. I also lost a couple pounds from working out more recently, but under no mean am I trying to be skinnier than I am right now. Just more toned and fit for athletic purposes.

It kills me that so many girls have eating disorders. I see so many celebrities and teenage girls who look unhealthily skinny. So many girls that want to look skeletal. So many posts on Tumblr about the "beauty" of collar bones and hip bones being completely visible. If that isn't how you were naturally made, I don't think you should push your body to look like that.  Maybe you can't lose those last couple pounds because you shouldn't. Your body is supposed to have some meat on your bones in order to survive and live a happy life. Not eating would make me the grumpiest person ever. I know that some girls can't help it and that it is truly a disorder they have developed. I'm also not trying to say everyone should go eat as much as they want every day and not work out. I just hate the fact that we live in a society where girls think that looking scrawny and bony is considered attractive. It puts a lot of pressure on girls that are already beautiful and shouldn't be so concerned about their weight.

On another note, last week I totaled my car and today the car shop officially declared it totaled. I have to get myself around somehow so my parents are letting me get a used car of my choice under a certain price budget. I'm looking at a Volkswagen Rabbit and a Jeep Liberty! I'm excited to get a new car that can be all mine! My first car was my grandmas old one so it didn't exactly feel like it was something to call my own. Now, I can get a real first car! Can't wait:)

That's all I have to say for today! Oh, my blog had 103 page views after only one day and I'm very happy to see that people are interested in what I have to offer on here!:)

Spring

"It's spring and soon the solace of life will chip away they melancholy"

I saw a rainbow this morning and it had a deep meaning to me. A rainbow is a sign of hope and beauty after a storm. Cliche, I know, but I really do feel like my storm is ending and good things are yet to come. I've been working out pretty much every day, taking care of myself, keeping up in school, and detaching from the negative things that bring me down in life.  I'm starting to feel great. The past couple months have been rough but spring is here and with it comes sunny skies and smiles. Next week my spring break will be spent focusing on positive energy, tanning, adventuring, enjoying the fact that my home life will be much calmer because my accountant Dad will have done all his work on April 15th, and anticipating what comes the weekend after; Coachella. For those who don't know; Coachella is a 3 day music festival in the desert. Its is in 18 days and I can't seem to think about anything else. It's going to be me and my favorite person in the world under the sun dancing three days away to our favorite bands. I've been wanting to go to Coachella since my freshman year and I can't believe that in only 18 days the time of my life that I have been anticipating for 3 years will have finally arrived. This is definitely "my" year to go. My all time favorite band The XX is playing, along with other favorites like Red Hot Chili Peppers, Wu-Tang Clan, Two Door Cinema Club, Teagan and Sarah, Tame Impala, ect. It's seriously occupying my whole mind right now.

“The day the Lord created hope was probably the same day he created Spring.”

Today was my boyfriend and my 18 month anniversary. I usually don't like doing the whole "monthiversary" thing on the first of every month (since he asked me out on the first of October) like some couples do, but this is exactly a year and a half so I think it's special. I think that him and I are good together unlike some couples.. Some people make terrible couples and shouldn't  be together especially if it's the most immature, annoying boy that should not have a girlfriend and they are polar opposites and she can do a lot better. Can you subtweet on a blog? Because if you can, I just did.

In conclusion, good things are on their way. I'm ecstatic that I'm beginning to feel the sense of hope I've been missing for a while